Sometimes it just feels as though life is about to come pouring down on you…  Life has a way of not letting you stay comfortable for too long.

I used to constantly worry about what the future was going to bring.  I wouldn’t like when things were too ‘happy’ because I was worried everything was going to come crashing down.  I am slowly getting better at this fear and trying to live more in the present.  It’s ridiculous to think that we can’t just be happy all the time, right?…  Well, I guess I still worry about the future and I get a little nervous when life seems to be feeling a little too smooth – but what has gotten better is that I’m realizing if things change it doesn’t mean my world is going to fall apart, it just means I need to step out of my comfort zone a little more.

Comfort is a very interesting feeling – it definitely means something different to each of us.  I do think though that we can all relate to terms like ‘comfort food’ and the desire to be comforted.  I was discussing with someone the other day about my new lifestyle and how it isn’t about comfort food, it’s about feeling good inside and out.  They were talking about how it would be hard to give up their comfort foods (most of which don’t really fit into this lifestyle).

It’s been a couple weeks though, and life has been starting to sprinkle on me a little, and I have been craving ‘comfort’ foods and the ‘comfy’ things in life (i.e. my bed, hah!).  For the first weekend when things were starting to get a little stormy I reached for past comfort foods (pancakes, donuts, candy bars, cinnamon rolls) and that turned into me being very uncomfortable.  I remembered one of the important realizations of my new lifestyle is how important it is to listen to your body – and I started focusing on this.  I ate salads with lots of veggies, green smoothies, eggs, and dark chocolate.  Then it dawned on me – these are my new comfort foods.  Changing your lifestyle isn’t about giving up the things you find comforting in life, it’s just about making adjustments to what that means to you.

This morning I was in a bit of a rush and threw together a smoothie with some greens, flax seeds, peanut butter, and frozen fruit.  If I’m being totally honest it didn’t taste that great (who has time to think about the green:fruit ratio when you are cranky and late for work) but it was oddly comforting.  Comforting in the sense that I knew even if I wasn’t feeling emotionally that great, my body was not going to give up on me.  My body was going to give me the energy I needed to make it through the day – and that is incredibly comforting.

Just because I don’t find comfort in foods such as homemade mac and cheese, waffles, or candy bars anymore doesn’t mean I gave up having comfort foods.  I realize how important it is to still take care of my physical body even if my emotional body is having a hard time.  If you give up on both your emotional AND physical body, it’s going to be so much harder to get yourself out a rut.  The least I can do for myself is feed it food that makes it happy.  The emotions will eventually come around.

~Here’s to letting life make you uncomfortable while still finding the comfort in life~



ImageHello!  Sunday nights… does anyone else hate them?  I don’t even have a full time job anymore and don’t get up as early as I used to, but I’m still not a huge fan on Sundays.  Have you ever seen The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy?  It’s like when Arthur says “I never did get the hang of Tuesdays.”  Well, to get over my Sunday slump I decided to take myself out to a coffee shop.  I am sitting at a local coffee shop trying to get work done, drinking my soy mate latte, but I’m having a hard time not people watching.  Do you ever get that feeling that you just belong some place.  I live in Boulder, CO and I don’t really think just looking at me you would say I belong, but the longer I have lived here and the more I observe, the more I realize there are very few people who don’t belong here.  And most of the time those people who would fit into that category don’t actually like Boulder so it’s not really like anyone else but themselves are categorizing themselves as such…  Anyways, a little tangent before I start what I came here for – Frolfing!

Can I say that if you type frisbee without a capital F that you will be asked to correct this?  That’s really weird to me… It’s also weird to me that people call frolfing (frisbee golf) ‘Disc Golf.’  The term ‘frolfing’ came from my high school days and I guess I just can’t let it go.  So I have been on a kick this summer of getting out and moving without actually working out.  I don’t hate to workout, I just don’t love it either.  This is also my first summer in Boulder that I haven’t had a full time job and I have really been trying to get out and enjoy the true beauty that I am surrounded by.  This summer, although I wish I have done more hiking, I have been getting out frequently to do some frisbee golf.

Disc golf, for those of you who have not heard of it, according to Wikipedia is “ a flying disc game, as well as a precision and accuracy sport, in which individual players throw a flying disc at a target.”  Yes this is considered a sport, and some people take it incredibly seriously.  If you are like me though and you just want to get out and have fun that is perfectly acceptable as well.

Frisbee golf (or if you prefer, Disc golf) is great because you don’t have to be an athlete, you don’t have to be good at throwing a Frisbee and you don’t really even have to have that great of depth perception.  You just need to find someone who will agree to be on a team with you;)  I am lucky that my boyfriend loves me enough to take pity on me and let me be on his team.  We really do make a great team though – he will throw the first long throw, we will both share throwing the mid-ranges and then I will throw the close ranges.  And we can even make par doing this!  My favorite thing about frolfing?  I actually do get great exercise in and I don’t even realize it because it is that much fun.  All of the courses in Boulder too also have phenomenal views, which always helps!

I realize that not every state has frolfing courses – however you should check first before you assume that your state doesn’t.  It is incredibly fun, and it allows you to get out and enjoy some fresh air.

Side note:  Do you ever find yourself while at a coffee shop staring other customers down if they have the seat you want, or if they have been lucky enough to jack an outlet before you?  I just caught myself staring at this gentleman next to me because he has taken the only outlet in this vicinity, and now he is leaving… I hope I didn’t have anything to do with that;)  Also though – JACKPOT!  Now I can sit here for two hours like I had set out to since my computer will happily be plugged in:)

Anyways – if your state has a Disc Golf course – go use it!  It will be worth it – I promise.  And take some pictures:)  Here are some from my most recent frolfing adventures – enjoy!


B’s first throw – easily made par on this one:)


How can you beat ‘exercising’ with this view?


Sometimes your disc gets thrown off course and you get to go trape-sing through the jungle…


Man, I love the moon


We’ve been playing a lot at sunset since it has been so hot – but look how beautiful it is!


I can’t get over these mountains…


The course we normally walk to really close to our house – love the view!


My boyfriend and I try to go on a walk after dinner every night.  Of course this doesn’t always happen – but I get real cranky if it doesn’t happen too many days in a row – haha whoops!  But we pass by this produce stand just a few houses down from us every time we walk and we stop almost every time to look and see what they have, but we have never actually purchased anything.  Well tonight – do you see how many amazing things they had for sale?  This is just a family that happens to like growing and sharing produce – and then at the end of the season they donate any profits to a local food-based non-profit.  I will have to look at the end of this season to see for sure what the non-profit is, but I know they don’t do this to make any money – they just love sharing what they have grown!


The colors didn’t get captured quite like I had hoped from my camera phone – but it’s pretty none the less.  I’m not sure I will ever get sick of seeing the mountains right in my backyard everyday – simply amazing!


This photo doesn’t do what we purchased justice, but we finally purchased from this stand!  And all of this?  It was only $3!  Some amazingly organically grown strawberries, some huge kale, and some deliciously smelling basil that I put in some water in my fridge to help keep it fresh and delicious.

I love coming across secret little finds like this and being able to participate.  Thanks neighbors!

~Conscious living at it’s finest~

Misconceived Sadness…

It’s a funny thing – when you tell people you don’t want donuts because it makes you feel way worse than the 29 seconds of deliciousness that you encounter, they get… sad.  I mean, not like the kind of sad that they missed their preferred showtime for a movie, but like the kind of sad that they just lost a dear dear friend.  Pure sadness…

I tend not to talk about my lifestyle with someone I just met, or even someone that I have known for a long time, unless I know they aren’t going to get that look.  If you’re vegetarian, I know you’ve received that look from meat eaters.  If you’re vegan you’ve definitely received that look from cheese lovers.  If you’re just health conscious then you’ve probably received that look from many many people.  They think that by changing you lifestyle – whether that be vegetarian, vegan, healthy, ‘flexitarian’ ‘oportunivore’ – that you are missing out on the happiness of life.  But what they don’t know is that in fact they are the ones missing out.

When I cut drastically back on sugar, refined flour, cheese, dairy and totally cut out meat I became this deeply happy person.  I enjoy food now – I don’t just devour it.  I don’t think about food all the time and my cravings are distant shadows of the past.  I understand how food can positively effect me instead of be a quick high that leads to disappointment.

Now I’m not saying that I don’t ever have cravings, or that I have given up all foods of my ‘past.’  Donuts – yes they are my downfall – and I give into my craving every time.  The funny thing though is that the more I give into my craving the less frequent my cravings are.

My boyfriend (who is on this clean lifestyle journey with me) and I truly believe in order to be successful in a true lifestyle change you can’t deprive yourself of the foods you love.  We do focus on the foods that we want to be nourishing our bodies, but we get cravings from time to time and we NEVER say no.  Some people may not like this approach but it totally works for B and I.  I can honestly say I never want traditional brownies again – and I’m a chocolate FIEND.  The pain that ensues when I eat the gooey chocolatey bliss however is a major disappointment.  And because I made brownies whenever I craved them now I never have a craving for them.  French toast is out (clean pancakes are in…), brownies are out (a piece of pure silky dark chocolate is in), donuts…? still in, but quickly waning.

B and I gave in to our craving and bought donuts this weekend – and you know what?  We were cranky, exhausted and unproductive all weekend.  It will probably be a while before I crave donuts again.

What gave me honest happiness?  My green fruit smoothie with ground flax seeds, spinach and kale, coconut water, peanut butter and frozen fruit on Monday morning.  My body had energy again, I had a much better outlook on life, and I got sooo much shit done!

People who think donuts are better than green smoothies – well you haven’t felt the power of green smoothies.

To everyone who mourns the loss of my sugar baked goods – you can enjoy them for me…:)

~The (wheat) grass really is greener on the other side~ [when you make it into a delicious smoothie…]

James Peak Wilderness

James Peak Wilderness

Last week my boyfriend, brother and his dog headed up to Nederland, CO to go on what we thought was a medium difficulty hike.  It turned out to be a 12 mile round trip hike right up the side of a waterfall… It was totally worth it though – it was so beautiful!

When I started on my journey of living a clean lifestyle I knew it would be a slow one.  If you are looking to change your lifestyle as opposed to just doing a diet it is much more of a transformation.  I feel like diets have a beginning and an end and you start full throttle into them.  A lifestyle change however is a slow and steady transition with perhaps a blurred beginning but definitely no end.

Part of living clean for me was to get more exercise.  Not only do I not have a ton of extra cash to sign up for a gym or to take yoga/pilates/Pure Barre classes but I have learned – even if I have already paid in advance for classes – that I don’t always keep myself accountable for getting up at 5:30 to drive to a gym to get a workout in.  When you live in Colorado though, you can’t help but be outside during the summer.  Living with B’s brother and his dog has been great motivation to get out and moving during the summer.  We have been working on taking some awesome hikes and when they are as beautiful as the ones that we have been doing with the amazing company I have been doing it with, it definitely doesn’t feel like exercise.  But let me tell you what – my body definitely was thanking me for it!

Exercise doesn’t have to be in a gym or running down a path, it is just focusing on getting up, moving and doing something that makes you happy.  For some people that is running, dancing, or going to the gym at 5:30 – for me it’s being close to nature and I feel so lucky that I am healthy enough and live in an incredible state that I can take hikes almost any day of the summer:)

Here are some more pictures from the hike:

James Peak Wilderness Cabin

James Peak Wilderness Sky

James Peak Wilderness Falls

James Peak Wilderness Pup

(How could you not love ‘exercise’ when you get to do it with this sweet puppy?)

James Peak Wilderness Greenery

Look at how beautifully green it was!  It was incredibly dense with tress – amazing!

James Peak Wilderness Stream

We were hiking next to these falls almost the whole way up!

James Peak Wilderness Water

James Peak Wilderness Scenery

James Peak Wilderness Lakes

The beautiful lake at the top – B and his brother brought all of their fishing gear up to get some fishing in.  I didn’t get a picture of it, but they caught a gorgeous Green Back Cutthroat that had the most amazing colors – they released it back into the lake of course:)

Sleepy Puppy

Sleep puppy at the top – it was a long hike for a puppy!

~Happy to live in such a beautiful place~